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07 May 2006: cause.

okay.
just got to know the cause of death.
depression.
committed suicide.
another case.
i think this time its jumping off.
last time it was hanging.
jialing's case was jumping off too.
and i remember granddad tried to jump off?
sigh.
people ending own lives.
it aint difficult to do so.
but its sure difficult for those left behind.
wont you regret it at that instant your body goes over?
life is precious.
our parents and us went through so much to bring us to this world.
we had to swim our lives out for the sperm race.
mum had to bear with all the pain.
kicking.
tearing.
sewing back on the spot.
ouch.
then it comes to the bringing up part.
sacrificed so much for us.
how can we end our lives just like that?
and leaving those who love us behind.
devastated.
shocked.
not being able to speak or see us as we leave.
sigh.
guess im more used to it already.
just v horrified at how people commit suicide.
was v shocked when i first heard granddad trying to jump off.
was really shocked n disgusted when i heard granduncle hung himself.
now im still shocked but havent felt the impact yet.
maybe i would at the funeral.
funeral.
reminds me of 2000 when mum passed away.
2004 when granddad passed away.
sigh.
gonna be tears n mucus again.
i miss mummy.

MUMMY!