yays. last night mr yeo called and asked me to march on national day. wahaha! and now im wondering why i agreed. high socks, long skirt or rather dress and high belt. zzz. im gonna have to appear like this in mj! i want daron to be the parade commander! hahaa. i wanna hold the singapore flag! so cool. anw, today i was feeling down so i ponned chem tutorial. hid in the library with mich bao bao and weeyang. and i drew a pair of slippers for e guy on the mac coupons. its so nice. then gayvin gave me an early christmas present. its a dog! but i havent open it yet so i cant describe. it has an ugly wrapping made of construction paper. and a funny card that made me laugh like siao in the canteen. boring maths tutorial. was flipping thru my econs notes instead. cause i didnt study over the weekend, and i didnt want to fail as badly as the mc test. and in e end i thought the paper was managable. yays. then geog lect was free period cause jerene tay on leave. so is geog tutorial. so we had 3 periods to play vball cause it was lunch after that. maths lect dozing off. gp as usual. pw free period. yays! training quite short. zomg my bro is irritating. watching some anime and i missed a few minutes of my weixiang. sob. byee.
30 July 2006:
maybe a greater thing will happen.
cool. went orchard with chio bu to find my bag n return the size samples. considering between a nike bag and the projectshop bag. oh and we saw danny. then went to my maternal grandma's house. sigh. and as i was leaving, i nearly died. phew. someone dropped this super big clothes peg down. and it landed next to me. so as the saying goes: big disaster never die, sure got after fortune. okay what a weird direct translation. haha. but the idea is there. the 1st set of numbers i thought of was 1327. but i was thinking it couldnt be la. cause this number wasnt 'natural' enough. so came 2137 and 2136. but anw we went ps cafe cartel but banana only works on sats. and the 4D results came. 3rd: 1327! zomg. im Fairy of Fortune. now get down on your knees and pray. hahaha! just kidding. just start throwing things at me from above. haha. anw its a very weird feeling im having now. hope everything will be fine.
dragon tiger gate.
wheee. went to watch dragon tiger gate at the same place again. and i thought i saw jung chao again. and i saw eileen ma'am n evelyn. and i thought i saw lihong. okay i didnt quite notice people around me. but the movie was nice! so cool. china is rising. and its gonna conquer the world soon. everything is starting to chinafy. hmm.. so i shud make a cool chinese name for myself. shen xin yi is kinda dont suit me. shud i get shen shi1 na4 or shen shi3 na4? kevin calls me shen shi1 na4. mere says shi1 na4 nicer. but i've been using shi3 na4 for quite some time.
28 July 2006:
teachers are mean.
some teachers are so unsensitive. haha. was talking to gayvin about the incident this morning and i remembered that jerenetay isnt the worst teacher. as in regarding this issue. there was ms yeo, my then science teacher. when my mum was on her death bed, my uncle came to bring us to her. and ms yeo didnt allow us to go. cause it was an exam day. but my uncle heck her and took us away. yet it's still too late. and theres mr teo, the then discipline master. when my mum passed away, my aunt called the school and told em about it. and after the funeral when me and my bro went back to sch, mr teo summoned for us and accused us of ponning sch. and we cried in his face. how can a 10 yr old girl and a 6 yr old boy take it? okay its over and not that sensitive anymore. and weixiang's coming up soon. and 10pm on national geographic: mt. st. helens eruption. damn cool. but i wanna see the yellow stone erupt. yellow stone is duno how many times bigger than that. its so big that people didnt realise it is a volcano. and an eruption can change the world's climate for duno how many years. v cool! dangerous but if i can see it erupt, i dont mind dying for it.
:(
and i just remembered this morning when i told jerene tay that i didnt let my dad sign the result slip. actually it was because i didnt see him the whole day. when i came back he was out. when i slept he came back. when i woke up he was gone. anw, she didnt know my mum passed away and i didnt know how to tell her. so i just kept quiet. i think alot of people in mj dont know about it. shant explain. the thought of getting a step mum and a step sis soon is damn weird. a step mum? how do i address her? is she gonna be my mum or my dad's wife? step sis? what does she look like? she's like 24 yrs old. how do i address her too? is she gonna be my sis or my step mum's daughter? will i have to lose my place in the family to her? they are already biased towards my future step sis. will this be my family? or what will it be? so where does my mum stand? will i have more cousins and grandparents? will i have to do more visits for newyear? to what extent must i invite the super extended family to my wedding? will we have to move house when they get married? will i have to attend my dad's wedding? he'll be getting married? but the bride's not my mum? will i still get to have a room of my own? can i still not tidy my room? can i still be under the control of no one? okay enough of such dumb questions as adults call them. a family that is not a family. what is a family? sometimes i just wanna hurry get outta this mess. they took her away, but she still lives in me. :'(
im tired.
till yeechuan asked us to hand in econs, i didnt realise that i took it outta my bag this morning. argh! could have submitted my 1st completed hw on time. but i guess its just fate. im not supposed to be a mugger. as usual we played vball again. and the pineapple head assaulted bird. it that how you spell it? anything la. then went gyming with yaqi. that was when i realise gay henry was as tall as me. yawns. from now on i'll walk slowly. mayo was saying i was lagging when we walked to maths make up. eugene was saying i walk v slowly too. anw vball is cool. the pain on my flesh is a substitute for those elsewhere. and its not an emo way of letting it out. haha! shall go play with my beautiful ball later. wheeee. till then, stone.
27 July 2006:
yays.
was in a daze in the morning. was dying. then wanted to take e green form to leave n skip the double gp. but i didnt. im guai! :)) after econs t i was more energetic. and during double gp i was drawing everywhere to keep myself away. my ankles: some flower and stuff. smiley face. my knee: retarded smile. my palms: cutie and some stuff. my elbow: a sad face that can turn smiley. my upper thigh: wanted to write faraway but its difficult writing upside down. yays. then i manage to finish econs hw while waiting for training to start. prolly the first hw i completed after the mid yrs. shall continue watching my weixiang. so cute! and i love my dad. he buys me ice kachang and it waited for me in the fridge till i got home. this blog. will not be my emotional support anymore. i dont need it. im strong on my own. yays! weixiang! i want to start my own business someday. weixiang is such a sweet guy. he gets so worried when yixin was in trouble or smth. sooooo sweet! lolipop. haha! i wanna be a happy person. xin yi = happy! okay this post is damn weird. but nvm. weixiang is cute! :))
26 July 2006:
when im in the blazer.
wheee. school was kinda boring but i wore the blazer today! yays! me and baobao were like the happiest people in the group. the rest were either lonely, sleeping or muggers. hahah. we were the noisiest. anw i saw jwen yu zhe joleen daniel and yvonne. didnt go look for davin. haha. the seminar was boring and the girl beside me was sleeping. anw this is not the main point. the main point is that i was wearing a BLAZER! stupid benedick wanted to take a pic. yawns im bored. lotsa work to do but im lazy! ahh!!
a pity.
im dying doing my EOM.
jian dan ai.
kiss goodbye.
25 July 2006:
yays.
diarrhea. whee. yesterday was dead tired. today i was dozing off in lessons. haha! gorging myself with coffee. haha. pinching myself and asking mayo to do it too. anw tmr gonna wear blazer!! yays! B-L-A-Z-E-R! hahaa!! change encoding to unicode!
hahaha!! as you can see im on ZYS's side. yays! good game ZYS. hahaha. at first ZYS was winning. wheee. then weeyang's team was close to scoring a goal. but the ball hit the pole. damn cool. hahaa. anw vs guys are so...irritating. and not to mention, VULGAR. haha. ZYS is waaaayy cooler. the goalie was damn cute cause when they scored the goal, no one was cheering. so he screamed GOOAALL alone at his lonely goal post. hahahah!! yang and the duno who were quite good. qing slacker la. always slack. davin got injured. yays. nice game. the score? 2-2. hahaha!! but im still on ZYS's side. cos the vs guys are irritating!! go ZYS!!!!
i guess we're back at one?
22 July 2006:
captain, allow me to join your crew.
went to watch pirates of the caribbean. saw that jung chao with this mj girl. hahah! and they watch the same movie too. it was nice. but the people beside me were rather disturbing. i wanna be a captain! :)) or your crew member.
what is true love, my man?
more to come.
whee. now diarrhea's attacking me too. cool. now i've got an announcement to make. remember the ms lai's talk during compass? remember her saying about this guy, or rather gay, gaming for hours and not studying for mid yrs and getting straight Fs? yes. hes the so-claimed genius gayvin. his life is in gaming with his gay partners momo and edwin. and skating down ecp. plus holding some stick n whacking some puck. he's always psychoing me, preaching about how IQ > hardwork, how gayvin > lameass mid yrs. and so i didnt really study until the day before the exam. and my results werent that bad. yet gayvin, on the other hand, got all straight Fs. and hes still aiming for As in a lvls. will gayvin make it? lets all wait and see. hah!
i miss you so.
im getting hotter.
yays. my temperature is rising. hahaha. woke up at like 7.30 cause i cant stay in bed any longer. sore throat still present, blocked nose still present, fever still present and getting worse. and now, there's the fabulous menstrual cramp. each of these itself is enough to kill me. now they're attacking me all at once. cool! haha. so here i am online charging my mp3 cause it died after the song back at one. yays. i gonna stone now. byee.
i pray for this heart to be unbroken.
yays im sicker.
haha. now having sore throat,blocked nose and slight fever. all after vball farewell. at first quite boring cause i wasnt playing anything. then it got damn spastic as we play. pole dance,telling e security guard that hes hot,touching the statue and the list goes on. plus my favourite swimming on the floor! hahaha. laughed until my sore throat got worse. and my temperature rising. woot. then went for some supper and manage to board the last train home. yays gonna rest soon. take care of myself. rest well. get well not so soon. hahahah. being sick is cool. :))
where'd you go? where'd you go?
21 July 2006:
im sick.
yays im sick. but not the sickest yet. so sad. today i couldnt concentrate on anything. had boring maths lect. quite fun pe. geog consultation which i was stoning in. and maths make up which i din listen too. feeling so sick. anushka gave me some stuff for e sore throat. its so strong that my tongue went numb. and it taste weird cause it has a v strong medicinal smell. but my throat still hurts. then played vball again to wake myself up. but still v sick. yays going vball farewell later. but going late. cause im sick and dont want to rush. haha. sorry grandma.
your smile is my best medicine.
20 July 2006:
i love weixiang!
zomg weixiang damn cute!! anw today i was feeling so screwed cos as usual i din do hw. and double gp was hell. she gave us compre to do just so she could mark her EOM. argh. nvm then. vball today was cool. but i feel lousy cause i couldnt get my spike correct. :(( spike spike spike!! and im too tall to reach over the net. :(( wdv la. sad training. anw we went toilet after training. and the auntie offed e lights. and we screamed. haha. got cheated by the vending machine. tried squeezing all the notes for the appreciation board. and saw ghostly people walking outta sch. yays. and im tired man. came home and still had to waste energy eating. and enjoying my ice kachang. and talking to gays. tadas. tmr is fri but i better do some maths before i get haunted down. im dying.
u're cold. im freezing.
19 July 2006:
today is tuesday.
haha. boring tuesday. had the boring security seminar. but if singapore is in danger, i'll provide first aid to the soldiers. im serious. anw me n baobao went to collect our blazers, skirts and ties. everything the same. haha. lacking a long sleeved white shirt and black shoes. yays!! but i guess i look weird in it. too mature for me! hahaha. its cool anw.
her tears fell on my shoulders. but they were meant for you.
18 July 2006:
i love weixiang!
yays im so in love with weixiang! that damn cute guy in the love @ 0 degrees c. damn cool and damn sweet. ZOMG!
if only this is reality.
the ultimate guide to slacking muggingly.
as i promised, here's my studying methods. i dont guarantee results but i got more than proportionate ones. firstly, read up the bible for motivation. if you like you can do up some posters. i did some but all ended up on the floor. next, draw up a study plan and follow it. FOLLOW IT. although i didnt. =x started officially the day before. as you can see there are only 2 ticks. but before this, u gotta do a subject breakdown. so as to plan the study plan well. next, practice speed reading. now lets get to the room setting. set the temperature to 19degrees c. ignore the clock. i didnt set it. it was prolly 4+pm when i took this. prepare some food but dont grow too fat. leave the caffine to the night. dump all your stuffs on your bed so you wont feel like sleeping instead. actually i was just lazy to pack my stuffs or remove them before i rest. i removed the picture cause it was really messy and embarrassing. now set some music. best if baroque music. and do not use earpiece. play it with speakers. next, the lighting. white background light with yellow focus light. now its studying time. 15 mins for speed reading. 15mins for info gathering. 45mins for whole brain notes. 45mins for memory. remember to stick to the time to the best of your ability. and follow the study plan! the rest are tacit knowledge. so go plan your revision for promos. yays.
you make me feel so insignificant. like i didnt matter.
today is wednesday.
operating on the wednesday timetable. it feels so relaxing being able to be home before 1.45. cause jerene tay release us early. yays. today i had a 'new' bag. the sexy green nike bag. no la. actually me and yaqi were playing bag swooping. hahaha! her bag is nicer to use. but mine is nicer to carry. cause i cant wear her bag properly. haha. today was a fun yet sad day. and we're gonna join vball for the interhouse games. :))
goodbye seems to be the hardest word.
17 July 2006:
what a day.
early morning realise i did the wrong stuffs for chem. then copied hw. then econs lect. couldnt stand her language. geog lect. i was stoning cause i dont understand anything. geog tutorial. did drq but i was overcoming the shock. lunch. eating and stoning. maths lect. dozing off. gp. yays continuation of movie! pw dozing off. break. stoning. and practicing my long lost chinese. vball. the best thing that happened today! after training. dead. and more ppl started saying i look like ruien. she's got my fringe! :))
16 July 2006:
match cancelled.
the soccer match between my dad's team and weeyang's team has been cancelled. the sports council said that the field is not in a good condition. but yesterday the field was alright when i saw it. last night then roses grew on it. must be. hahaha! nvm its okay. sorry weeyang. i could sense unhappiness between the 2 teams. or at least weeyang n my dad, though it wasnt my fault? haha. so today wont have anything exciting going on. sigh. what a sad life. mugger or shi-na? i like mugger but most ppl ask me put shi-na. but shi-na is like so long ago n ununique. hahaha how?! and number. which number??
15 July 2006:
for class jersey.
wondering which name i should get.
i want to be left alone. not.
im used to it. the distance. the disappointment. i dont deny how much i want to see you. but yet wish i dont. your smile cant hide the coldness. it kills. i promised myself not to let anyone hurt me. i tried hard to keep to it. but when i turn the lights out, i know im cheating myself. no one will see me weep. at least not you. i wish mummy's here with me. i wish you were. but for you i will, be your support.
tile painting.
yays went for tile painting in sch. was boring at first cause we had to do for national day. but as we design more, it became funner. haha! here are 5 outta my 6 tiles. my first! lionman? hahas spastic. my second. like my cutie. and the same old design as our red cross tee. and the ultimate wdv one. mr. and mrs. singapore. then played a little of vball again. looking forward to tmr's match. yays.
14 July 2006:
im injured.
yays pe was fun. played vball with e rest. and i fell. abrasion on my left knee. ouch. haha! and the usual sch life goes on. here are the class top 3 positions. 3rd: yaqi!! 2nd: faris. (ohh) 1st: sheena yays! zomg cant believe it. the slacker. top the class? hahs. then went to play vball again. wooh! so tired after 4days of vball a week. then went for ice cream at the phobos ice cream party. and my battery kinda ran low. feeling down already. not gonna stay up till v late i think. must go sch at 9 tmr. and again at 3 on sunday. mj gonna be my 2nd home.
u're not here. wheni needed you, u're not here.
13 July 2006:
one bar of battery left.
hahhaa! so tired after vball training. today had the best gp lesson ever. cause it was some movie. hahaha! yays im tired. but loads of work to do. hopefully i'll survive. byee!
12 July 2006:
vballers are cool.
gp today is boring as usual. and i got back my geog paper for checking. it was actually 44.5% and the kind teachers rounded it up! yay! so it was 45% and i passed! then played vball with yaqi weijia andrew kevin n 2 other vball guys. quite tiring but fun. cause vballers are cool. yaqi and andrew are half vballers. hahaha! we came up with a compilation of vball dance steps. it started with me! cause im always like dancing when i hit the ball. yays. so now gotta cheong hw. hahaa! i feel guai. but we'll see if i can sustain. and tmr theres training! but i've got no energy left. argh. gonna go all out already. fri is a short day but playing vball and having ice cream party after school. ice cream! oh yes i've got one in the freezer!! and my dad's cool. his team playing against weeyang's. DATE: 16july2006 VENUE: mjc field TIME: 3-5pm yays go support my dad. hahaha! the yellow shirts are my dads team and the white shirts are weeyang's. and the referee is daniel izzat's dad. haha! cool game.
11 July 2006:
i failed!
whoosh. i failed econs. but its okay. what more can i expect if i only started the day before? haha. 5/30 for the drq and 11/25 for essay. but 2nd in class to faris, who also failed. heh. yea gonna sleep soon. was pulling my eyelids open during gp. no! shall watch some la bi 1st. and gayvin is so mean taking pictures of girls with gays.
10 July 2006:
i love school.
had chem tutorial. first time it was in class. anw i passed! surprisingly. got 2 calculation errors and i should be getting a D instead of an E. then couldnt remember much but i passed geog for now. 2nd in class. but there might be moderations and i might rise or fall. then came gp. quite boring but i passed! yes! and some were surprised that i got 28/50 just by writing on one sheet of paper. whee. then pw. we were supposed to spend the whole lesson thinking of titles for our stuff. and since we were doing on aromatherapy, here are the titles: Breathe in the therapy (yaqi) Ministry of smell (yaqi) Got smell? (liyana i think) Breathaholic (yaqi) Aromalicious (yaqi) Hotter than air (yaqi) When you smell nothing at all (sheena) when you say nothing at all It's not just about oxygen (yaqi) Tired of oxygen?Breathe in the therapy. (yaqi) Beautiful smell (sheena) beautiful love Smell along (yaqi) move along Just my smell (yaqi) just my luck and more la. and we settled for Aromatically Involved. yawns. i still prefer my When you smell nothing at all. hahah!! then had vball training. quite fun but tiring. and my legs are cramped now. right arm is strength-less. thats it. i love vball! we were slacking on one table in e atrium after training. on one table. haha! I LOVE VBALLERS! haha. tmr is tue and there is pe! i wan games. yea a number of hw to be done. sigh.
v cute! i love my la bi to bits! anw today i went to tm for pw. were quite concentrated until yaqi asked if im wearing 2 earsticks. no im wearing 6. haha. then talked about her naval piercings. then labour. haha! then we went to get some more stuffs for michelle's present. yes! im so inspired to wrap the present. haha. then i boarded the bus. but my ezlink doesnt have sufficient money. another girl too. and our smallest note was 2 bucks. so the other people on the bus were v nice. this yj floorball girl changed 2bucks with me. and this guy gave me 20c. useless but thanks anw. i love bus 81. haha. actually only them. yep later gonna go down to croc farm for steamboat. again. so unexpected. steamboat. STEAMBOAT! dont really like homemade ones. but there will be others around. i hope. kays byee!
my la bi!
this is cute!
08 July 2006:
i love STEAMBOAT and CHILLI CRAB! yum. and im feeling excited about going down to aj in blazer and tie!
07 July 2006:
friday is maths day!
got back our maths paper. nothing surprising cause we knew our results yesterday. it was so many careless mistakes. sigh. but its okay. then had pe. merely took height and weight. im 159! but ediotic mario insisted im 158.5. and im heavy! 48.7kg. i was expecting smth lesser because i didnt had dinner last night. but nvm. big heavy bones. haha! then played vball with yaqi n mario. yaqi regretted not joining vball. cause vball is FUN! haha. then blah blah. was late for maths make up cause i had a tummy ache. and i made a point to rush to class. yet ms yeo was teasing at me bouncing to class. :(( haha nvm. i love maths. then went with baobao chimp adele and weeyang to shop for baobao's shoes and mich's present. funny thad saying hi to the wrong girl. legs are dead tired. i hope michelle will like her present! i'll be VERY upset if she doesnt. so michelle prepare a speech to say you like it k? haha. then me and bao bao were waiting for the bus home. and 21 came. and she asked if i could run. cause she said i was carrying a big bag plus the present. yet i ended up running faster than her. haha. feeling v weird now. cause i hadnt had a proper meal since yesterday. didnt had a proper recess,no lunch,a little fried rice at home,no dinner. this morning no breakfast(as usual),no recess,no lunch,had some titbits,and just now some kueh or smth. later dinner gotta eat. or else dad will nag. im dead tired now but i gotta press on. new resolutions for the new term. complete all homework on time. no copying is allowed. no skipping of classes. no stoning in lectures. revise my work everyday. okay theres no use continuing. cause i wont follow it anw. haha! just like how i drew up a super nice study plan, and ended up pushing everything to the last few days before the exams. i do not want answers. please.
06 July 2006:
it felt the same a year ago. just that it's stronger now. if only my mind was strong. if only my thoughts are numb. i wouldnt ask for much (just an A will do.kidding). i understand. i just want myself in this mess all alone. finally the power of it makes sense to me. grant me the strength to withstand all storms, to stand strong, and to be your support. i'd die for you to live. i'd cry to see you smile. i'd tear down my wings for you to fly. i am MR STRONG! i must be strong.
results are nearly out.
ms yeo told us our maths results. 36/70. 2nd in class. 1st is YAQI! haha. we managed to push faris away! okay shh..that's mean. anw i felt so demoralised when she showed us other classes' results. all blue. argh. then econs. we thought she would be fierce. but she wasnt. she was very nice. yay. double gp. got nothing to say la. compass. the best time to have *** is _____. AT NIGHT! hahaha! then we asked jerene tay about our geog. hmm.. pray that a moderation will push me up. pray. came home and slept for so long. feeling v sick. argh. i must be STRONG.
05 July 2006:
t.t.
tough training. haha! so tired now. we ran 4 rounds. after that i couldnt hear anything. heh. then felt like vomitting. but well, chun can dao si si fang jin, la ju cheng hui lei shi gan! hahaha! i searched for this in e chinese dict last night. cos i had to lend it to gayvin. im dreading school. cause there's double gp tmr. zzz. was already falling asleep during pw lect on the first day of school. cant imagine what will gp be like.
04 July 2006:
qian nian zhi lian.
found this.
kboxing.
went kbox with the girls: yanhong, rachelle, sermin and the guys: eugene weijia ken andrew wahaha! damn crazy, with the tai mei song. and laughing at the ma de and ka na si or smth. then went to arcade. played some lame games. i tried the boxing thing. lousy. heh. then e 3 girls left. left me n the guys. and the guys went shopping for clothes. new age guys. sigh. and i was carrying their bags of clothes. new age girls. haha! and this song is recommended by tu zi.
brian mcknight - back at one It's undeniable That we should be together It's unbelievable How I used to say That I fall never The basis is need to know If you don't know Just how I feel Then let me show you now That I'm for real If all things in time Time will reveal One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one So incredible The way things work themselves out And all emotional once you know what its all about, hey And undesirable For us to be apart Never would have made it very far Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one Say farewell to the dark of night I see the coming of the sun I feel like a little child Whose life has just begun You came and breathed new life Into this lonely heart of mine You threw out the life line just in the nick of time One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one
too bad he couldnt find this song in kbox. here for you.
02 July 2006:
my la bi xx!
01 July 2006:
stuck.
whee. got restricted to either staying at home or jjc. zzz. thats cruel. to leave such a cute daughter at home, leaving her to cook instant noodles for lunch when she doesnt even know how to do it properly, and even nearly scalded her hand as she pours hot water into the pot she was holding in her hands at the base. seeing such a poor cute little girl being stuck at home, dont your heart just breaks for her? wahahaha! anw since im stuck at home, i shall upload photos that i havent uploaded. 3n and 4n. couldnt take a pic of 1a and 2a cause i was in that block. the courtyard. wooh. reminds me of my screwed up parade. :p the cedar bus stop. with my darlings in it. haha. clara's deformed bear. oops. michelle's style of taking a picture. anw, the dwarf(weeyang) and the giant(sheena). :)) a101! our neighbour class. thats it. now on to watching la bi. or more puzzles? haha!
mystery callers shoo!
whats up with mystery callers now? one called and msg me wanting to be my friend. i dont know that person right? one just kept calling despite my numerous attempts to reject. im sure i didnt understand the language he was saying. im sure he wasnt supposed to call me. i kept rejecting the calls. but he still kept calling. i was so irritated. it was 9+am and i was supposed to be sleeping peacefully. but here i am now typing on my blog to escape from the calls. argh. shall help my bro with his puzzle. im a puzzle genius. hahahahaha!!
something just isnt right. i can feel it inside. the truth isnt far behind me. you cant deny. when i turn the lights out. when i close my eyes. reality overcomes me. im living a lie.
i still think far away's better.
on my knees, i'll ask, last chance for one last dance. cause with you, i'd withstand, all of hell to hold your hand. i'd give it all, i'd give for us, give anything but i wont give up. cause you know, you know, YOU KNOW.
i love puzzles!
had to babysit my bro today as i promised my grandma. i was so bored at home. so i skated, played my guitar, kboxed at home (hahaha! more of creating a din). and finally it was time to go out for dinner! yays. and we saw a disgusting sight. a guy dressed in a tight and small yellow little singlet and small little blue shorts with long yellow hair and girly actions. eeks! we got a shock man. then went to buy puzzles! and i completed my 300pieces one already. its in the frame. PRETTY! just like rynae. haha. but 300 is a little too little. super non challenging. should buy the 1000 pieces one next time. haha. and sheena cant smile for the time being. dont make me smile. cause my wound will open and bleed again. a sheena that doesnt smile is like a gayvin that isnt gay, a rynae who isnt pretty, an eugene that doesnt look like hamster, a kendo that doesnt look like rabbit, a mayo without seaweed, a yaqi without naval piercing, a weiqing who isnt chio, a jack who doesnt climb a beanstalk, a baohui who isnt handsome, a jwen who doesnt love me, a xuani who doesnt fantasize on me, a jess who isnt sexy, an eve who isnt my twin and so on.. yawns.
31 July 2006:
back on track.
yays. last night mr yeo called and asked me to march on national day. wahaha! and now im wondering why i agreed. high socks, long skirt or rather dress and high belt. zzz. im gonna have to appear like this in mj! i want daron to be the parade commander! hahaa. i wanna hold the singapore flag! so cool. anw, today i was feeling down so i ponned chem tutorial. hid in the library with mich bao bao and weeyang. and i drew a pair of slippers for e guy on the mac coupons. its so nice. then gayvin gave me an early christmas present. its a dog! but i havent open it yet so i cant describe. it has an ugly wrapping made of construction paper. and a funny card that made me laugh like siao in the canteen. boring maths tutorial. was flipping thru my econs notes instead. cause i didnt study over the weekend, and i didnt want to fail as badly as the mc test. and in e end i thought the paper was managable. yays. then geog lect was free period cause jerene tay on leave. so is geog tutorial. so we had 3 periods to play vball cause it was lunch after that. maths lect dozing off. gp as usual. pw free period. yays! training quite short. zomg my bro is irritating. watching some anime and i missed a few minutes of my weixiang. sob. byee.
30 July 2006:
maybe a greater thing will happen.
cool. went orchard with chio bu to find my bag n return the size samples. considering between a nike bag and the projectshop bag. oh and we saw danny. then went to my maternal grandma's house. sigh. and as i was leaving, i nearly died. phew. someone dropped this super big clothes peg down. and it landed next to me. so as the saying goes: big disaster never die, sure got after fortune. okay what a weird direct translation. haha. but the idea is there. the 1st set of numbers i thought of was 1327. but i was thinking it couldnt be la. cause this number wasnt 'natural' enough. so came 2137 and 2136. but anw we went ps cafe cartel but banana only works on sats. and the 4D results came. 3rd: 1327! zomg. im Fairy of Fortune. now get down on your knees and pray. hahaha! just kidding. just start throwing things at me from above. haha. anw its a very weird feeling im having now. hope everything will be fine.
dragon tiger gate.
wheee. went to watch dragon tiger gate at the same place again. and i thought i saw jung chao again. and i saw eileen ma'am n evelyn. and i thought i saw lihong. okay i didnt quite notice people around me. but the movie was nice! so cool. china is rising. and its gonna conquer the world soon. everything is starting to chinafy. hmm.. so i shud make a cool chinese name for myself. shen xin yi is kinda dont suit me. shud i get shen shi1 na4 or shen shi3 na4? kevin calls me shen shi1 na4. mere says shi1 na4 nicer. but i've been using shi3 na4 for quite some time.
28 July 2006:
teachers are mean.
some teachers are so unsensitive. haha. was talking to gayvin about the incident this morning and i remembered that jerenetay isnt the worst teacher. as in regarding this issue. there was ms yeo, my then science teacher. when my mum was on her death bed, my uncle came to bring us to her. and ms yeo didnt allow us to go. cause it was an exam day. but my uncle heck her and took us away. yet it's still too late. and theres mr teo, the then discipline master. when my mum passed away, my aunt called the school and told em about it. and after the funeral when me and my bro went back to sch, mr teo summoned for us and accused us of ponning sch. and we cried in his face. how can a 10 yr old girl and a 6 yr old boy take it? okay its over and not that sensitive anymore. and weixiang's coming up soon. and 10pm on national geographic: mt. st. helens eruption. damn cool. but i wanna see the yellow stone erupt. yellow stone is duno how many times bigger than that. its so big that people didnt realise it is a volcano. and an eruption can change the world's climate for duno how many years. v cool! dangerous but if i can see it erupt, i dont mind dying for it.
:(
and i just remembered this morning when i told jerene tay that i didnt let my dad sign the result slip. actually it was because i didnt see him the whole day. when i came back he was out. when i slept he came back. when i woke up he was gone. anw, she didnt know my mum passed away and i didnt know how to tell her. so i just kept quiet. i think alot of people in mj dont know about it. shant explain. the thought of getting a step mum and a step sis soon is damn weird. a step mum? how do i address her? is she gonna be my mum or my dad's wife? step sis? what does she look like? she's like 24 yrs old. how do i address her too? is she gonna be my sis or my step mum's daughter? will i have to lose my place in the family to her? they are already biased towards my future step sis. will this be my family? or what will it be? so where does my mum stand? will i have more cousins and grandparents? will i have to do more visits for newyear? to what extent must i invite the super extended family to my wedding? will we have to move house when they get married? will i have to attend my dad's wedding? he'll be getting married? but the bride's not my mum? will i still get to have a room of my own? can i still not tidy my room? can i still be under the control of no one? okay enough of such dumb questions as adults call them. a family that is not a family. what is a family? sometimes i just wanna hurry get outta this mess. they took her away, but she still lives in me. :'(
im tired.
till yeechuan asked us to hand in econs, i didnt realise that i took it outta my bag this morning. argh! could have submitted my 1st completed hw on time. but i guess its just fate. im not supposed to be a mugger. as usual we played vball again. and the pineapple head assaulted bird. it that how you spell it? anything la. then went gyming with yaqi. that was when i realise gay henry was as tall as me. yawns. from now on i'll walk slowly. mayo was saying i was lagging when we walked to maths make up. eugene was saying i walk v slowly too. anw vball is cool. the pain on my flesh is a substitute for those elsewhere. and its not an emo way of letting it out. haha! shall go play with my beautiful ball later. wheeee. till then, stone.
27 July 2006:
yays.
was in a daze in the morning. was dying. then wanted to take e green form to leave n skip the double gp. but i didnt. im guai! :)) after econs t i was more energetic. and during double gp i was drawing everywhere to keep myself away. my ankles: some flower and stuff. smiley face. my knee: retarded smile. my palms: cutie and some stuff. my elbow: a sad face that can turn smiley. my upper thigh: wanted to write faraway but its difficult writing upside down. yays. then i manage to finish econs hw while waiting for training to start. prolly the first hw i completed after the mid yrs. shall continue watching my weixiang. so cute! and i love my dad. he buys me ice kachang and it waited for me in the fridge till i got home. this blog. will not be my emotional support anymore. i dont need it. im strong on my own. yays! weixiang! i want to start my own business someday. weixiang is such a sweet guy. he gets so worried when yixin was in trouble or smth. sooooo sweet! lolipop. haha! i wanna be a happy person. xin yi = happy! okay this post is damn weird. but nvm. weixiang is cute! :))
26 July 2006:
when im in the blazer.
wheee. school was kinda boring but i wore the blazer today! yays! me and baobao were like the happiest people in the group. the rest were either lonely, sleeping or muggers. hahah. we were the noisiest. anw i saw jwen yu zhe joleen daniel and yvonne. didnt go look for davin. haha. the seminar was boring and the girl beside me was sleeping. anw this is not the main point. the main point is that i was wearing a BLAZER! stupid benedick wanted to take a pic. yawns im bored. lotsa work to do but im lazy! ahh!!
a pity.
im dying doing my EOM.
jian dan ai.
kiss goodbye.
25 July 2006:
yays.
diarrhea. whee. yesterday was dead tired. today i was dozing off in lessons. haha! gorging myself with coffee. haha. pinching myself and asking mayo to do it too. anw tmr gonna wear blazer!! yays! B-L-A-Z-E-R! hahaa!! change encoding to unicode!
hahaha!! as you can see im on ZYS's side. yays! good game ZYS. hahaha. at first ZYS was winning. wheee. then weeyang's team was close to scoring a goal. but the ball hit the pole. damn cool. hahaa. anw vs guys are so...irritating. and not to mention, VULGAR. haha. ZYS is waaaayy cooler. the goalie was damn cute cause when they scored the goal, no one was cheering. so he screamed GOOAALL alone at his lonely goal post. hahahah!! yang and the duno who were quite good. qing slacker la. always slack. davin got injured. yays. nice game. the score? 2-2. hahaha!! but im still on ZYS's side. cos the vs guys are irritating!! go ZYS!!!!
i guess we're back at one?
22 July 2006:
captain, allow me to join your crew.
went to watch pirates of the caribbean. saw that jung chao with this mj girl. hahah! and they watch the same movie too. it was nice. but the people beside me were rather disturbing. i wanna be a captain! :)) or your crew member.
what is true love, my man?
more to come.
whee. now diarrhea's attacking me too. cool. now i've got an announcement to make. remember the ms lai's talk during compass? remember her saying about this guy, or rather gay, gaming for hours and not studying for mid yrs and getting straight Fs? yes. hes the so-claimed genius gayvin. his life is in gaming with his gay partners momo and edwin. and skating down ecp. plus holding some stick n whacking some puck. he's always psychoing me, preaching about how IQ > hardwork, how gayvin > lameass mid yrs. and so i didnt really study until the day before the exam. and my results werent that bad. yet gayvin, on the other hand, got all straight Fs. and hes still aiming for As in a lvls. will gayvin make it? lets all wait and see. hah!
i miss you so.
im getting hotter.
yays. my temperature is rising. hahaha. woke up at like 7.30 cause i cant stay in bed any longer. sore throat still present, blocked nose still present, fever still present and getting worse. and now, there's the fabulous menstrual cramp. each of these itself is enough to kill me. now they're attacking me all at once. cool! haha. so here i am online charging my mp3 cause it died after the song back at one. yays. i gonna stone now. byee.
i pray for this heart to be unbroken.
yays im sicker.
haha. now having sore throat,blocked nose and slight fever. all after vball farewell. at first quite boring cause i wasnt playing anything. then it got damn spastic as we play. pole dance,telling e security guard that hes hot,touching the statue and the list goes on. plus my favourite swimming on the floor! hahaha. laughed until my sore throat got worse. and my temperature rising. woot. then went for some supper and manage to board the last train home. yays gonna rest soon. take care of myself. rest well. get well not so soon. hahahah. being sick is cool. :))
where'd you go? where'd you go?
21 July 2006:
im sick.
yays im sick. but not the sickest yet. so sad. today i couldnt concentrate on anything. had boring maths lect. quite fun pe. geog consultation which i was stoning in. and maths make up which i din listen too. feeling so sick. anushka gave me some stuff for e sore throat. its so strong that my tongue went numb. and it taste weird cause it has a v strong medicinal smell. but my throat still hurts. then played vball again to wake myself up. but still v sick. yays going vball farewell later. but going late. cause im sick and dont want to rush. haha. sorry grandma.
your smile is my best medicine.
20 July 2006:
i love weixiang!
zomg weixiang damn cute!! anw today i was feeling so screwed cos as usual i din do hw. and double gp was hell. she gave us compre to do just so she could mark her EOM. argh. nvm then. vball today was cool. but i feel lousy cause i couldnt get my spike correct. :(( spike spike spike!! and im too tall to reach over the net. :(( wdv la. sad training. anw we went toilet after training. and the auntie offed e lights. and we screamed. haha. got cheated by the vending machine. tried squeezing all the notes for the appreciation board. and saw ghostly people walking outta sch. yays. and im tired man. came home and still had to waste energy eating. and enjoying my ice kachang. and talking to gays. tadas. tmr is fri but i better do some maths before i get haunted down. im dying.
u're cold. im freezing.
19 July 2006:
today is tuesday.
haha. boring tuesday. had the boring security seminar. but if singapore is in danger, i'll provide first aid to the soldiers. im serious. anw me n baobao went to collect our blazers, skirts and ties. everything the same. haha. lacking a long sleeved white shirt and black shoes. yays!! but i guess i look weird in it. too mature for me! hahaha. its cool anw.
her tears fell on my shoulders. but they were meant for you.
18 July 2006:
i love weixiang!
yays im so in love with weixiang! that damn cute guy in the love @ 0 degrees c. damn cool and damn sweet. ZOMG!
if only this is reality.
the ultimate guide to slacking muggingly.
as i promised, here's my studying methods. i dont guarantee results but i got more than proportionate ones. firstly, read up the bible for motivation. if you like you can do up some posters. i did some but all ended up on the floor. next, draw up a study plan and follow it. FOLLOW IT. although i didnt. =x started officially the day before. as you can see there are only 2 ticks. but before this, u gotta do a subject breakdown. so as to plan the study plan well. next, practice speed reading. now lets get to the room setting. set the temperature to 19degrees c. ignore the clock. i didnt set it. it was prolly 4+pm when i took this. prepare some food but dont grow too fat. leave the caffine to the night. dump all your stuffs on your bed so you wont feel like sleeping instead. actually i was just lazy to pack my stuffs or remove them before i rest. i removed the picture cause it was really messy and embarrassing. now set some music. best if baroque music. and do not use earpiece. play it with speakers. next, the lighting. white background light with yellow focus light. now its studying time. 15 mins for speed reading. 15mins for info gathering. 45mins for whole brain notes. 45mins for memory. remember to stick to the time to the best of your ability. and follow the study plan! the rest are tacit knowledge. so go plan your revision for promos. yays.
you make me feel so insignificant. like i didnt matter.
today is wednesday.
operating on the wednesday timetable. it feels so relaxing being able to be home before 1.45. cause jerene tay release us early. yays. today i had a 'new' bag. the sexy green nike bag. no la. actually me and yaqi were playing bag swooping. hahaha! her bag is nicer to use. but mine is nicer to carry. cause i cant wear her bag properly. haha. today was a fun yet sad day. and we're gonna join vball for the interhouse games. :))
goodbye seems to be the hardest word.
17 July 2006:
what a day.
early morning realise i did the wrong stuffs for chem. then copied hw. then econs lect. couldnt stand her language. geog lect. i was stoning cause i dont understand anything. geog tutorial. did drq but i was overcoming the shock. lunch. eating and stoning. maths lect. dozing off. gp. yays continuation of movie! pw dozing off. break. stoning. and practicing my long lost chinese. vball. the best thing that happened today! after training. dead. and more ppl started saying i look like ruien. she's got my fringe! :))
16 July 2006:
match cancelled.
the soccer match between my dad's team and weeyang's team has been cancelled. the sports council said that the field is not in a good condition. but yesterday the field was alright when i saw it. last night then roses grew on it. must be. hahaha! nvm its okay. sorry weeyang. i could sense unhappiness between the 2 teams. or at least weeyang n my dad, though it wasnt my fault? haha. so today wont have anything exciting going on. sigh. what a sad life. mugger or shi-na? i like mugger but most ppl ask me put shi-na. but shi-na is like so long ago n ununique. hahaha how?! and number. which number??
15 July 2006:
for class jersey.
wondering which name i should get.
i want to be left alone. not.
im used to it. the distance. the disappointment. i dont deny how much i want to see you. but yet wish i dont. your smile cant hide the coldness. it kills. i promised myself not to let anyone hurt me. i tried hard to keep to it. but when i turn the lights out, i know im cheating myself. no one will see me weep. at least not you. i wish mummy's here with me. i wish you were. but for you i will, be your support.
tile painting.
yays went for tile painting in sch. was boring at first cause we had to do for national day. but as we design more, it became funner. haha! here are 5 outta my 6 tiles. my first! lionman? hahas spastic. my second. like my cutie. and the same old design as our red cross tee. and the ultimate wdv one. mr. and mrs. singapore. then played a little of vball again. looking forward to tmr's match. yays.
14 July 2006:
im injured.
yays pe was fun. played vball with e rest. and i fell. abrasion on my left knee. ouch. haha! and the usual sch life goes on. here are the class top 3 positions. 3rd: yaqi!! 2nd: faris. (ohh) 1st: sheena yays! zomg cant believe it. the slacker. top the class? hahs. then went to play vball again. wooh! so tired after 4days of vball a week. then went for ice cream at the phobos ice cream party. and my battery kinda ran low. feeling down already. not gonna stay up till v late i think. must go sch at 9 tmr. and again at 3 on sunday. mj gonna be my 2nd home.
u're not here. wheni needed you, u're not here.
13 July 2006:
one bar of battery left.
hahhaa! so tired after vball training. today had the best gp lesson ever. cause it was some movie. hahaha! yays im tired. but loads of work to do. hopefully i'll survive. byee!
12 July 2006:
vballers are cool.
gp today is boring as usual. and i got back my geog paper for checking. it was actually 44.5% and the kind teachers rounded it up! yay! so it was 45% and i passed! then played vball with yaqi weijia andrew kevin n 2 other vball guys. quite tiring but fun. cause vballers are cool. yaqi and andrew are half vballers. hahaha! we came up with a compilation of vball dance steps. it started with me! cause im always like dancing when i hit the ball. yays. so now gotta cheong hw. hahaa! i feel guai. but we'll see if i can sustain. and tmr theres training! but i've got no energy left. argh. gonna go all out already. fri is a short day but playing vball and having ice cream party after school. ice cream! oh yes i've got one in the freezer!! and my dad's cool. his team playing against weeyang's. DATE: 16july2006 VENUE: mjc field TIME: 3-5pm yays go support my dad. hahaha! the yellow shirts are my dads team and the white shirts are weeyang's. and the referee is daniel izzat's dad. haha! cool game.
11 July 2006:
i failed!
whoosh. i failed econs. but its okay. what more can i expect if i only started the day before? haha. 5/30 for the drq and 11/25 for essay. but 2nd in class to faris, who also failed. heh. yea gonna sleep soon. was pulling my eyelids open during gp. no! shall watch some la bi 1st. and gayvin is so mean taking pictures of girls with gays.
10 July 2006:
i love school.
had chem tutorial. first time it was in class. anw i passed! surprisingly. got 2 calculation errors and i should be getting a D instead of an E. then couldnt remember much but i passed geog for now. 2nd in class. but there might be moderations and i might rise or fall. then came gp. quite boring but i passed! yes! and some were surprised that i got 28/50 just by writing on one sheet of paper. whee. then pw. we were supposed to spend the whole lesson thinking of titles for our stuff. and since we were doing on aromatherapy, here are the titles: Breathe in the therapy (yaqi) Ministry of smell (yaqi) Got smell? (liyana i think) Breathaholic (yaqi) Aromalicious (yaqi) Hotter than air (yaqi) When you smell nothing at all (sheena) when you say nothing at all It's not just about oxygen (yaqi) Tired of oxygen?Breathe in the therapy. (yaqi) Beautiful smell (sheena) beautiful love Smell along (yaqi) move along Just my smell (yaqi) just my luck and more la. and we settled for Aromatically Involved. yawns. i still prefer my When you smell nothing at all. hahah!! then had vball training. quite fun but tiring. and my legs are cramped now. right arm is strength-less. thats it. i love vball! we were slacking on one table in e atrium after training. on one table. haha! I LOVE VBALLERS! haha. tmr is tue and there is pe! i wan games. yea a number of hw to be done. sigh.
v cute! i love my la bi to bits! anw today i went to tm for pw. were quite concentrated until yaqi asked if im wearing 2 earsticks. no im wearing 6. haha. then talked about her naval piercings. then labour. haha! then we went to get some more stuffs for michelle's present. yes! im so inspired to wrap the present. haha. then i boarded the bus. but my ezlink doesnt have sufficient money. another girl too. and our smallest note was 2 bucks. so the other people on the bus were v nice. this yj floorball girl changed 2bucks with me. and this guy gave me 20c. useless but thanks anw. i love bus 81. haha. actually only them. yep later gonna go down to croc farm for steamboat. again. so unexpected. steamboat. STEAMBOAT! dont really like homemade ones. but there will be others around. i hope. kays byee!
my la bi!
this is cute!
08 July 2006:
i love STEAMBOAT and CHILLI CRAB! yum. and im feeling excited about going down to aj in blazer and tie!
07 July 2006:
friday is maths day!
got back our maths paper. nothing surprising cause we knew our results yesterday. it was so many careless mistakes. sigh. but its okay. then had pe. merely took height and weight. im 159! but ediotic mario insisted im 158.5. and im heavy! 48.7kg. i was expecting smth lesser because i didnt had dinner last night. but nvm. big heavy bones. haha! then played vball with yaqi n mario. yaqi regretted not joining vball. cause vball is FUN! haha. then blah blah. was late for maths make up cause i had a tummy ache. and i made a point to rush to class. yet ms yeo was teasing at me bouncing to class. :(( haha nvm. i love maths. then went with baobao chimp adele and weeyang to shop for baobao's shoes and mich's present. funny thad saying hi to the wrong girl. legs are dead tired. i hope michelle will like her present! i'll be VERY upset if she doesnt. so michelle prepare a speech to say you like it k? haha. then me and bao bao were waiting for the bus home. and 21 came. and she asked if i could run. cause she said i was carrying a big bag plus the present. yet i ended up running faster than her. haha. feeling v weird now. cause i hadnt had a proper meal since yesterday. didnt had a proper recess,no lunch,a little fried rice at home,no dinner. this morning no breakfast(as usual),no recess,no lunch,had some titbits,and just now some kueh or smth. later dinner gotta eat. or else dad will nag. im dead tired now but i gotta press on. new resolutions for the new term. complete all homework on time. no copying is allowed. no skipping of classes. no stoning in lectures. revise my work everyday. okay theres no use continuing. cause i wont follow it anw. haha! just like how i drew up a super nice study plan, and ended up pushing everything to the last few days before the exams. i do not want answers. please.
06 July 2006:
it felt the same a year ago. just that it's stronger now. if only my mind was strong. if only my thoughts are numb. i wouldnt ask for much (just an A will do.kidding). i understand. i just want myself in this mess all alone. finally the power of it makes sense to me. grant me the strength to withstand all storms, to stand strong, and to be your support. i'd die for you to live. i'd cry to see you smile. i'd tear down my wings for you to fly. i am MR STRONG! i must be strong.
results are nearly out.
ms yeo told us our maths results. 36/70. 2nd in class. 1st is YAQI! haha. we managed to push faris away! okay shh..that's mean. anw i felt so demoralised when she showed us other classes' results. all blue. argh. then econs. we thought she would be fierce. but she wasnt. she was very nice. yay. double gp. got nothing to say la. compass. the best time to have *** is _____. AT NIGHT! hahaha! then we asked jerene tay about our geog. hmm.. pray that a moderation will push me up. pray. came home and slept for so long. feeling v sick. argh. i must be STRONG.
05 July 2006:
t.t.
tough training. haha! so tired now. we ran 4 rounds. after that i couldnt hear anything. heh. then felt like vomitting. but well, chun can dao si si fang jin, la ju cheng hui lei shi gan! hahaha! i searched for this in e chinese dict last night. cos i had to lend it to gayvin. im dreading school. cause there's double gp tmr. zzz. was already falling asleep during pw lect on the first day of school. cant imagine what will gp be like.
04 July 2006:
qian nian zhi lian.
found this.
kboxing.
went kbox with the girls: yanhong, rachelle, sermin and the guys: eugene weijia ken andrew wahaha! damn crazy, with the tai mei song. and laughing at the ma de and ka na si or smth. then went to arcade. played some lame games. i tried the boxing thing. lousy. heh. then e 3 girls left. left me n the guys. and the guys went shopping for clothes. new age guys. sigh. and i was carrying their bags of clothes. new age girls. haha! and this song is recommended by tu zi.
brian mcknight - back at one It's undeniable That we should be together It's unbelievable How I used to say That I fall never The basis is need to know If you don't know Just how I feel Then let me show you now That I'm for real If all things in time Time will reveal One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one So incredible The way things work themselves out And all emotional once you know what its all about, hey And undesirable For us to be apart Never would have made it very far Cause you know that you got the keys to my heart One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one Say farewell to the dark of night I see the coming of the sun I feel like a little child Whose life has just begun You came and breathed new life Into this lonely heart of mine You threw out the life line just in the nick of time One You're like a dream come true Two Just wanna be with you Three Girl it's plain to see That you're the only one for me Four Repeat steps one through three Five Make you fall in love with me If ever I believe my work is done Then I start back at one
too bad he couldnt find this song in kbox. here for you.
02 July 2006:
my la bi xx!
01 July 2006:
stuck.
whee. got restricted to either staying at home or jjc. zzz. thats cruel. to leave such a cute daughter at home, leaving her to cook instant noodles for lunch when she doesnt even know how to do it properly, and even nearly scalded her hand as she pours hot water into the pot she was holding in her hands at the base. seeing such a poor cute little girl being stuck at home, dont your heart just breaks for her? wahahaha! anw since im stuck at home, i shall upload photos that i havent uploaded. 3n and 4n. couldnt take a pic of 1a and 2a cause i was in that block. the courtyard. wooh. reminds me of my screwed up parade. :p the cedar bus stop. with my darlings in it. haha. clara's deformed bear. oops. michelle's style of taking a picture. anw, the dwarf(weeyang) and the giant(sheena). :)) a101! our neighbour class. thats it. now on to watching la bi. or more puzzles? haha!
mystery callers shoo!
whats up with mystery callers now? one called and msg me wanting to be my friend. i dont know that person right? one just kept calling despite my numerous attempts to reject. im sure i didnt understand the language he was saying. im sure he wasnt supposed to call me. i kept rejecting the calls. but he still kept calling. i was so irritated. it was 9+am and i was supposed to be sleeping peacefully. but here i am now typing on my blog to escape from the calls. argh. shall help my bro with his puzzle. im a puzzle genius. hahahahaha!!
something just isnt right. i can feel it inside. the truth isnt far behind me. you cant deny. when i turn the lights out. when i close my eyes. reality overcomes me. im living a lie.
i still think far away's better.
on my knees, i'll ask, last chance for one last dance. cause with you, i'd withstand, all of hell to hold your hand. i'd give it all, i'd give for us, give anything but i wont give up. cause you know, you know, YOU KNOW.
i love puzzles!
had to babysit my bro today as i promised my grandma. i was so bored at home. so i skated, played my guitar, kboxed at home (hahaha! more of creating a din). and finally it was time to go out for dinner! yays. and we saw a disgusting sight. a guy dressed in a tight and small yellow little singlet and small little blue shorts with long yellow hair and girly actions. eeks! we got a shock man. then went to buy puzzles! and i completed my 300pieces one already. its in the frame. PRETTY! just like rynae. haha. but 300 is a little too little. super non challenging. should buy the 1000 pieces one next time. haha. and sheena cant smile for the time being. dont make me smile. cause my wound will open and bleed again. a sheena that doesnt smile is like a gayvin that isnt gay, a rynae who isnt pretty, an eugene that doesnt look like hamster, a kendo that doesnt look like rabbit, a mayo without seaweed, a yaqi without naval piercing, a weiqing who isnt chio, a jack who doesnt climb a beanstalk, a baohui who isnt handsome, a jwen who doesnt love me, a xuani who doesnt fantasize on me, a jess who isnt sexy, an eve who isnt my twin and so on.. yawns.
1. Sleep by 11pm
2. Wake up at 6am to jog
3. Eat healthy
4. Swim at least once a week
5. Take up meditation/yoga
6. Get organized and systematic
7. Be consistent in studying
8. Simplify my life
9. Envision my ultimate life
10. Set long-term goals - Focus on it and make it happen
11. Review goals weekly
12. Keep a personal diary
13. Enjoy the simple pleasures - Go to the beach when I need to unwind
14. Savour the little things
