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10 June 2006: sian.

went to buy my shirt and la bi vcd.
the bus ride home was freaky.
my limbs went soft.
cos there was this 15 yrs old girl behind me telling a 9 yrs old guy about her life.
and they obviously dont know each other well.
she was talking about how she can only go out with friends 3 times a year.
then how she wanted to go aust to study.
and she asked that lil boy not to say it.
then she showed him her cuts.
as in she slashed herself.
i couldnt see it (lucky me) but i could hear it.
as in..
she said that she cut because of a particular HER.
think its her mom or wad.
but anw,
she said he was too young to understand.
and she hate HER alot.
and she even taught that lil boy how to self slash.
eeks.
that was bad enough for me.
she said just buy a razor for 50cents.
very cheap.
and that lil boy had to add
that a razor can peel off e skin.
argh.
at that point i could swear it was the most unbearable bus ride ever.
i have never felt so 'soft' limbed before.
except during bio lessons in cedar.
my hands and legs went soft when we were learning about red blood cells.
my notes went crazy.
couldnt hold my pen properly.
haha!
anw it was lucky i reached my stop soon.
or else i could have flopped down into jelly in the bus.
its strange how some people struggle to live,
yet some others choose to end their own lives,
self destruct,
self slash.
eeks.
guess its only on the verge of death when we know how to cherish what we have.
i love my grandma! <3 :)