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Sheena

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28 July 2006: :(

and i just remembered this morning when i told jerene tay that i didnt let my dad sign the result slip.
actually it was because i didnt see him the whole day.
when i came back he was out.
when i slept he came back.
when i woke up he was gone.
anw,
she didnt know my mum passed away and i didnt know how to tell her.
so i just kept quiet.
i think alot of people in mj dont know about it.
shant explain.
the thought of getting a step mum and a step sis soon is damn weird.
a step mum?
how do i address her?
is she gonna be my mum or my dad's wife?
step sis?
what does she look like?
she's like 24 yrs old.
how do i address her too?
is she gonna be my sis or my step mum's daughter?
will i have to lose my place in the family to her?
they are already biased towards my future step sis.
will this be my family?
or what will it be?
so where does my mum stand?
will i have more cousins and grandparents?
will i have to do more visits for newyear?
to what extent must i invite the super extended family to my wedding?
will we have to move house when they get married?
will i have to attend my dad's wedding?
he'll be getting married?
but the bride's not my mum?
will i still get to have a room of my own?
can i still not tidy my room?
can i still be under the control of no one?
okay enough of such dumb questions as adults call them.
a family that is not a family.
what is a family?
sometimes i just wanna hurry get outta this mess.
they took her away,
but she still lives in me. :'(