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22 June 2007:
back from gate of death
im back from the gate of death. well maybe not.
felt so cold yet so hot. dont know i was covered in sweat or water. too weak to stand, too weak to sit. cant see, cant hear, cant eat my pill.
seriously i felt trapped in a spoilt tv with a sizzling screen and muting. with cold shivering limbs and a body covered in cold sweat, i felt my way to the kitchen to get a glass. fumbling, struggling to hang on, i poured hot water into it. i could so see what may happen next. i may faint, i may break the glass, i may scald myself. isnt this what i've been wishing for? an escape route.
i didnt know why i struggled so hard to keep concious. grabbing the packet of bread on the table, stuffing it down my throat, gushing in hot water to keep myself from going down. then hurried to swallow the pill with limited water.
it felt like i could just give up and be gone.
it was just a menstrual cramp but why does mine hurt so much than others?
why do i keep seeing you in my dreams? is everthing a coincidence? why am i still so giddy?
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22 June 2007:
back from gate of death
im back from the gate of death. well maybe not.
felt so cold yet so hot. dont know i was covered in sweat or water. too weak to stand, too weak to sit. cant see, cant hear, cant eat my pill.
seriously i felt trapped in a spoilt tv with a sizzling screen and muting. with cold shivering limbs and a body covered in cold sweat, i felt my way to the kitchen to get a glass. fumbling, struggling to hang on, i poured hot water into it. i could so see what may happen next. i may faint, i may break the glass, i may scald myself. isnt this what i've been wishing for? an escape route.
i didnt know why i struggled so hard to keep concious. grabbing the packet of bread on the table, stuffing it down my throat, gushing in hot water to keep myself from going down. then hurried to swallow the pill with limited water.
it felt like i could just give up and be gone.
it was just a menstrual cramp but why does mine hurt so much than others?
why do i keep seeing you in my dreams? is everthing a coincidence? why am i still so giddy?
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1. Sleep by 11pm
2. Wake up at 6am to jog
3. Eat healthy
4. Swim at least once a week
5. Take up meditation/yoga
6. Get organized and systematic
7. Be consistent in studying
8. Simplify my life
9. Envision my ultimate life
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